Merry Christmas to Me!

This is the best Christmas I've had in 10 years!! It's not about gifts (although I do love my Kindle!) or social engagements (except maybe the Trans-Siberian Orchestra concert). It's about family, and being happy.



The Best: I recently reconnected with my favorite sister.



I last spoke to her just after Jordan died. She was going to come to the funeral, and then she didn't. I can't remember why, that was a very clouded time for me. But then we just never talked again. I was so deep in my grief, and I think she was at a loss. I also believe the thought of taking care of me as I plowed through that emotional hurricane was terrifying for her. We'd always been close: she'd let me live with her and her family when my parents pretty much disowned me for being an unwed mother. But this was a different kind of mess, the kind that you can't wash off or walk away from. Although I didn't know much else at the time, I knew that.





I have never been angry, even one moment, about how all that happened. It just was. I learned so quickly that people grieve how they need to grieve, there's no right or wrong way. And I had friends and family who helped me through it. It's been 10 years, and I'm fine. Thanks to FaceBook, we're reconnected. It's like the past 10 years melted away, or never even happened. I am so happy to have my sister back in my life. I love her. And having her back is the best Christmas gift ever.